XLI

The Even Cloth

What you call the flaw in the cloth is the cloth.

There was a woman in a river village who wove cloth for three generations of the same family. When she died, her granddaughter took her place at the loom.

The granddaughter had watched the work all her life. But she had always noticed the old woman's cloth had small interruptions—places where the weft crossed against itself, slight ridges where thread bound thread at an angle. The granddaughter had trained in the town, where the weavers prized an even surface. She believed her grandmother's method was simply imprecise.

She refined it. She drew the threads straight, removed the catching crosses, smoothed the joins until the cloth lay flat as still water.

When she lifted it, it fell apart at the seams.

She wove it again. It fell apart again. She sat with the ruin in her hands.

An old weaver from the valley came to trade. He looked at the loom and said nothing for a moment.

"You've taken out the binding crosses," he said.

"They made the cloth uneven."

He picked up a length of the ruined cloth and let it hang from his hand. "The crossing is not a flaw in the cloth," he said. "The crossing is the cloth."

She thought of her grandmother, who had always paused between words when she spoke—small, steady gaps that the granddaughter had never learned to wait through. She had believed the pauses were empty.

She returned to the loom and set the crosses back. The cloth became uneven. The cloth held.